god..even nat and sam are 16..i feel so old >< but happy bday =)

so we celebrated with the *twins* last weekend, my first family gathering for a longgg time. don’t get me wrong i see my family a lot, just hardly in a dinner setting anymore, unless some relative is here from hk, which is not too rare i guess. and i realized i really have a lot more to talk about with my own family now. i remember the days when i had virtually nothing to say to any of my cousins..it was like a totally separate generation to me. then now we even plan presents together and trade a bunch of stuff. then after dinner that night we went to sam/nat’s new house to eat cake and my aunt taught me and my cousins to play taiwanese mahjongg..it was hilarious haha. and we were playing for like 3 hrs…i guess the family mahjongg tradition lives on. the funniest thing is mat doesnt kno how to play but his gf does, johnnie is too good at it but his gf isnt, then there is me when i just suck but i play but jacky is gd but doesnt play. then the 4th ‘leg’ is my 3 goo ma..who was the oddest one out of all. who dares beat her? LOL we all got scolded for not letting her eat. it was surprisingly fun and i finally actually feel part of my own family.

the canadian economy is getting more and more scary nowadays, but then i have the burden of having to find a full-time within the next few months. before i know it, im graduating next year, and i really do hope i can find a good full-time job. now that this is drawing closer, im feeling more of the stress to save money to buy my own house, to support myself. my dad has been bugging me these few years to find a job so that he can retire already, so i also have to face the prospect of giving him money back already. its really quite scary to think about all the stuff i need money for =\ and to find a job at such a bad time..man is it scary. sometimes i wish i was back in 1st year, graduation not even in sight…but then i guess this is a lot better because i know im actually growing up..quite fast.

so, alas, i am just eyeing graduation. courses are good this year, with a veryy good schedule. a little boost on my gpa, then i should be good to go!

happy birthday to me first of all.

i think this is the first birthday i have ever woke up in tears. i had one of those dreams again. the dream where i went back to somewhere mom used to go with me all the time. this time i went back to where we worked. back to yips where i used to help her every sat. she would bring this big black recyclable bag with a bunch of random useless things..like magazines..some notebooks with the most random scribbles and a bunch of crayons and ’scrap’ paper which had lineart on them. and i felt myself returning there and seeing that bag on a table again. looking through it just made me break down. to see all of that stuff again, to see her writing, to see all those weird things that she writes in her books haha. i used to find it so funny and find her crazy for writing down these recipes or sayings that she thought were amazing. then i even see my first ttc student id which i remember throwing down her bag a long long time ago..and all these coupons we cut out regularly from the newspaper.

i dont think i would ever forget these…and i am thankful that i do remember on my birthday and that i would never forget or want to forget. thanks mum i love u.

-from an already 21 yr old trisha…=’)

a few months already. these few months have been doing what a summer should have brought. went on my long anticipated trip to hk, came back and did the surprisingly easy 2 courses for summer school, and now getting ready for my last summer trip to NYC 2 weeks from today.

on another note, my birthday is once again coming up. feels weird to be another year older. and i hardly feel it anymore. perhaps i know so many people older than me now, that it just does nothing to me. cause no matter what age i am i’ll feel the ‘youngest’ within them haha.

home is becoming more of a home now. more people, more ‘family’. i actually have people to talk to now at home instead of before where i seemed to be sitting by myself all the time so i avoid it at all costs. its one of those times again where i suddenly seem like a ‘family-girl’. despite the fact that every night there is somebody still randomly knocking on my door because she doesn’t know what time it is, but at least somebody else understands how i feel now living here. makes the situation seem a lot better, and seems to take a lot more of the stress off my shoulders. but the feeling isn’t due to last long, but another relative close-by would always help.

and now i am awaiting september. i can’t wait to start the school year. early start, early finish, early graduation. then whether or not i could find a job for next year is another issue. i am taking up piano again this year. been teaching piano so much these few weeks, that it actually makes me want to play myself again. perhaps having this new teacher would really help, but i still do not know which teacher i am getting! hoping it would come soon…

almost a month into my trip and also the end. thoughts? i couldn’t believe i went back to china again. the minute i walked back into tiananmen i remembered the last time i went..haha. this time quite a dif experience. much cooler for example. i remember boiling in the sun last time =\ and the funny thing is i seemed to have done much more than china in a week than i had done in a month last time i went. maybe cause we were thankfully not sick this time. and it will always be memorable how the shanghai hotel was so ‘china’ that we didnt dare open the covers..and instead sleep with a sweater on my shoulder and a sweater on my feet.

and here i am in hong kong once again. after thriving to come back for the past 2 years. and i didnt do as much shopping as the last time also =) the most we spent was an amazing macau stay at the venetian. (and yes, it was very very amazing…the best room i hav ever seen). however last time was much more of a family trip, and this time more of a ‘couple’ trip =) not that im complaining at all haha. i have such a tourist boyfriend that i need not take pictures any more =D and this time everytime we go out it is a group of 5, which is new in hk for me. its always been 2 people or the whole family. now i have my one, he has another one, and joey has her one =) 2 years such a big dif? haha id think so. and i must say i am happy for her to finally find one that deserves her. now i have to fight with him over her..hahahahaha. ok it is about time to get up for k. until next time~

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